Depression Pt.2 > Gravitational Pull

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I can feel impeding thoughts pull me in different directions, not knowing which direction to take.

 

“Why don’t you go run around the block, get a good cardio exercise in?”

 

“You know, you have some papers to file away….”

 

“Damn, I have to take time out my day to clean my room, I had let my clothes piled up for weeks.”

 

“Is smoking weed the best choice to take at this moment ?”

 

With each and every statement that echoes. I became imprisoned. No way to break away, I sat there,” will this action bring an outcome that will have a positive impact?”. You think on past memories and current plans. You let time pass you by, not taking action on any of the things you planned to do. This is the life of a chronic thinker, I lost my will to take action. Some people like to label it as depression, I like to call it being stuck within the “mental plane of existence”.  

 

Me being isolated in my mind, I let my task become a victim to procrastination. When the time to take action is now ! Why wait for action to take place, when the motion has not been set ? This is a mindset I have to live by. Stand up for yourself, do not let the thoughts ruin your day. Choose at least one action.

 

I chose, then my destiny is set on a crash course to a series of outcomes to be. Thinking of all what can go wrong and what can go right had relinquished from my thoughts.

 

Riches pass through the currency system as the water that flows through egypt rivers. The civilians of that nation wake every morning to catch fish by the river side. Will they idly stand by and let food slip from their grasp ? This is the way to eat. If a man do not fish he do not eat.

 

I myself sleep in everyday, waking up at least 11:00 am. Laying there until 12pm, thinking has left me paralyzed. I know I need to make a choice but not know which way to turn. Sometimes the answer is in your face. I know the answer is in my face, I just have to know how to take it for a feast.

 

The diner plate talk to me in my sleep…..

 

“Your food is becoming cold as the minutes pass by.”

 

This is the most expensive dish that only the royalist of worldly conquerors have sink their teeth into.”

 

“The only thing you have to do is decide to pick up your fork to eat within this feast.”

 

I respond back half woke…

 

“How can I eat if there is no fork ?”

 

“My nigga, these forks are no where around for me to find”

 

Until, I woke my eye, move in faith, saw my opportunity, then dominated. I had to seek Light for Motivation

Octvne Gives Detroit Flavor With His Latest Single

 

Detroit rapper Octvne has been on a consistent grind since his release of the “Always Clocked In” mixtape . Octvne’s promoted single, “Flavor” ,has reached over eight hundred plays and continues to gain traction after the release of his tape. Octvne continues his grind with fellow wordsmith super group Blvk Tvod.  He is one of those artist from Detroit that brings something new to the table.

Jay-Z Story of Oj Remake Tutorial By Leaufix

 

Jay-Z “4:44” boast a single that caught the attention of the internet by storm. Oj Story is a song that deals with economic structure in his community growing up. The song also deals with racial issues. The video it-self adds more light to the story that is being told. The Story Of Oj is produced by No I.D, he sampled Nina Simone. No I.D had intricite cuts on this record. Producer Leaufix decided to show us the technique that went into producing such a cut.

 

 

Finding Light In The Darkness…My Mental State Is not reality

Depression

 

Losing yourself is losing something that can not be put into a dollar amount. I myself lost people and status that I treasured the most, causing me to realize the importance of time. These things that were apart of my identity is now gone , challenging me to reinterpret life and myself. As my mind sits, ruminating on the outcomes of today from the problems of tomorrow, I noticed that created a sense of worry. Thinking on the non-existent, instead of the present moment. Also, from me being idle, that is when my imagination takes a hold. I can see the depths of my demons, wondering should I end it all today. When that is not the case, I just need to experience more within life instead of anticipation wash me underneath the tormented sea.

I sometimes believe my mind suffers from schizophrenia, as I can hear chants in my head. These chants tell me that, “I have enemies waiting to gun me down on my next move”. The random images that pop into my head then it happens within the next time frame, affirming me that my thoughts is real. When in reality(that exist outside of my own), I need to escape from my world. I put to much value into my thoughts, which is why my physical being will suffer. I suggest to myself, instead of living in the “Fifth dimension“, I need to live in the physical realm of existence. I challenge those that are reading this to go seek happiness, or succumb to the fear of your own mental prison. I became happier as I seek for new relationships and reinvent myself within life. It helps keeps my mind balance and take myself out of my thoughts. Although they still come back to haunt me, the will to fight them is what keeps my sanity. 

Fixing Term Oil With Your Significant Other

We all reach a point in every relationship were we do not know whether to turn left, right or go forward. You think the best thing to do is walk away, the point of no return has been reached. You can not even stand of being in the same room as one another. Television has became more attractive than your significant other. What’s left to do, break up or file for divorce ?

I think the best option is to find the spark within your relationship again. Seeking new outlets together to explore, or going out on dates again. I think couples can fall apart due to school, work and balancing out your personal life. Jealousy can also tend to rise when we spend more time with other conquest than our own partners. Take time and enjoy life together, you may find it rewarding.

I also believe that sometimes, couples therapy may be a great outlet. Have you became a changed person overtime within the period of being together. Change is great, your partner has not been able to adjust. They may still think of you as a cheater that likes to have sex with everything that walks. Change can bring about fear or emotional scars. Seek couples therapy if you want to try and get it fixed. You guys we’re together through it all. Why let it go now ?

 

Write out the pro’s and Con’s of what you like about your relationship and see what can be done to improve them. 

T/ / E O Bizniz

DjMixTrill

This mix put together by Canadian native T / / E O is submerged in lean, wax and dabs. This mix is the drug of choice if you want to zone out to some beats that are soothing for you’re ear. I sat through this whole mix, the cut that caught my attention was the remix that they did of Pimp C that samples “Michael McDonald-I Keep Forgetting”, two monumental artist that were a turning point for RnB and Hip-Hop. Then it transitions into a Migos remake. This mix can be played in any smoked out room with topless snow bunnies and ebony models, indulging in any drug of choice. Make sure to check out his soundcloud @Frozenpeas1241.

 

HTC Vive is leaving Sony And Xbox in the past

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HTC Vive is the future for the way we play games. You ever want to enter into an interactive world and actually feel like you are buss’n a cap in a N**** A**. Than the Vive is the next gen system you need. This headset will surely put analog consoles in the past. With it’s innovative technology you will be immersed into another landscape. The HTC Vive comes with over a thousand games to stream. This video gaming world offers a lot of diversity and comes with an app store so you can feel at home in this online realm of existence. Although the technology is different, it offers the same capabilities you can access on any electronic that has been created within this technological era. With game titles that grow at a rapid pace you will never grow tired of this console. With titles like, “Star Trek: Bridge Crew”, “Rick and Morty: Virtual Rick-ality” and the soon to be released “Resident Evil VII Biohazard”, this console is the future of gaming.

 

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