Depression moves FAST

Depression affects 6.8 million adults worldwide. Everyday activities like work and relationships can have an influence on mental health. Why is depression a plague, harvesting it’s disease on the minds of many Americans? We live in a fast paced economic environment that creates a sense of worry. We ruminate about loss of income and when the next season of Empire will be released, all while giving updates on social media. We consume are everyday lives with what is going on around us, we distract away from what happiness is.

 

I got diagnosed with Antidepressant medication in 2015. Me and my family finally moved out the “hood”, as some would like to call it, only to still face the struggles of our reality. During this time I was attending Oakland Community College, not having the money to support myself, I came to school looking like a scene out of thriller. I still was able to project confidence, burying away the insecurities of what I was faced with, only too give myself and others around me strength. Some would describe me as a happy-go-lucky shy type of nerd. But through the smile, I had a deep sense of worry for myself and those around me. How is my mom going to pay the rent ? My little sisters seem really happy here, they finally have the opportunity to feel what it is like living in an environment that is not affected with misery, misunderstanding and crime. My mom can go to work and not feel a burden or stress.  She feels a sense of peace coming home to a place with no worry around her. All these things that are on my mind created depression. I did not realize I was having depression. I had a constant fear of paranoia and not trusting others. Trouble with breathing and irregular heartbeats three times throughout my day. Each and every time I would ask for help, no one around me knew what to do. Until one day I schedule a doctor’s appointment. I explained the situation, only for them too suggest that I may suffer from Bipolar disorder, Manic Depression and even Sleep Apnea. They gave me a number too see a psychiatrist an anti depressants to cope with what I was dealing with. As I took the medicine, it did not have a positive affect. It actually made things worse in how I dealt with life. I had a hard time picking up the phone to talk to my brother and then girlfriend. It even caused me to lose the motivation to write another song. I woke up one morning hallucinating my baby sister was an octopus. I immediately discontinued use from that point on. I think serotonin is a precious chemical that is not to be played with. I learned how to find inner peace. I did that on thinking about brighter tomorrows. Achieving something positive everyday.

 

By taking the focus off ourselves, we can wash away the worries that we allow society too give to us. Join the cause and donate too FAST, it is a program to help the youth stay on the right track. Let’s end this plague of depression together by helping the hearts of the children. Human healing has to come from within before it manifest to reality.

Shh……. The Introvert is at work

Silence is the most powerful response in existence. For ourselves and even for others. Silence can also be used in certain practices, bringing the element of surprise in any situation or conversation. Silence can also be used too get in touch with your inner thoughts. A quote I also find of interest by Albert Einstein, “The monotony and solitude of a quiet life stimulates the creative mind.”.

When you open you’re mouth to speak you are inviting trash to be received. Only speak when it is at something of value or people that value you. Add a mystery to you’re allure and give information that is needed. Why waste you’re mouth grovelling at the unnecessary details to only reveal more of yourself. I met some pretty quite people in my lifetime. These are the people who minds has conversed throughout a scenario with complete focus.  Not letting one word slip away to break their focus. Actually, sitting in solitude is a step in learning self love. You are not only valuing yourself, BUT ALSO THE INFORMATION YOU HOLD. 

Choose to break silence when met with company that adds value to what you do. Me personally, im not the strong silent type, but I choose to have conversation that will value and increase me, not decrease. Letting garbage evade your mental temple, you will be faced with the sign of the times from within. You give value to words by saying them, that is why I practice, “thinking before I speak”. I do not want certain phrases to invade my head to give an image that I do not want to think on. Spend a time of your day, today, if you may and sit in silence.  Your ideas will surely thank you.

Back From A Great Honey Moon Vacation

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A beautiful relationship that you feel can not be replaced.  You been on dates, enjoying the moments of intimacy shared. The first three months were great. Cannoning after dark as the moonlight beams upon the lakes current. You lock eyes with the love of your life wishing this reality do not come to a cessation. Destiny has already been planned in your mind, you have hopes of walking the altar.

Six months later, tension has been building. Miscommunication has became frequent and you do not realize what is happening. You thought you had it all figured out, then realize the admiration she had for dispersed into the vapors. Forgetting the realistic circumstances that love is a mere potion. You then ask yourself, am I too deep ? Where did I go wrong within this relationship.

Love is more than just having a good time. It is a long haul journey that requires vision and goals. After the lust has died down what is the plans next going forth in the relationship? The honey moon was just a vacation, now it is back to the real world. Both you guys are returning to college and live on separate campuses. One likes to party every night while the other has sleep deprivation. Different priorities, both put you guys on a standstill. Now what is next, Communicate to rule the nation ? Or if you really love something you let it go ?

Carlo$ Sanchez Gives Listeners A Rude Awakening

 

Detroit rapper Carlo$ is raw potential on the come up. After he sent me his video, I was in remembrance of all those that are on the come up. The artist who started with a dream and I watched it build. He is one of those people who are genuine in what they do.  Having performed at colleges and showcases he learned a lot on his journey. We also look forward to teaming up with Lo$ in the future to do amazing work. You can check his video out above.

Dear Hip-Hop, My open letter to the f*** s****

 

How have we come to this?   Shoving different colored pills down our throat. At first the cool thing was being materialistic. No, that was not good enough for you. You decided to up the ante and turn people into “savages”. But then that was not good enough ,and now you promote us killing ourselves through destructive habits. We have often over looked great acts because of how we been distracted with self inflicted songs promoting negativity.

They say this is what the people want, but what if this is a lie. What if I been program to believe this is what I want. I had to re-train my ears because of you. Because of you, I missed out on great acts like Capital Steez, Big Krit and even slept on Mick Jenkins. I been so used to hearing self-deprecation I thought that is what made good hip-hop.

The energy behind going outside and shooting somebody is not what Zulu Nation wanted for rap music. Something that was so innocent, started out in the back of parties, DJing disco records to keep the impoverished neighborhoods partying with good vibes. Has now became the staple of ride around with the pistol tucked away music. Now do not get me wrong. I came to realize that different types of stanzas are different ways rap artist use to express themselves. I love half of Futures catalogue and I think he adds a great spin on trap music. But why do we consider this the end all of rap music ? Where is the versatility, especially when it comes to versatility within the rougher parts of America. I’m talking about the “hood”, where prison rates are rising while the backdrop music fuels this anger of trying to fight the statistics.

Trap music came from the struggle, grit and grime. But the days of Jeezy and T.I. has long died.  Artist showing  critical thinking in song form is being diminished slowly. We now live in a current climate where chanting the same idea for a whole 10 songs is the new cool thing.

Why have you brainwashed a million other up and coming rappers, too think that the only way to make a “hit” is to rap about the same mundane topics over and over again and not push innovation. When in reality, it does not matter how great your song is, you need money and popularity to push the record. Does rap music only live in the club ? Does good rap music only exist within an atmosphere where liquor, half naked woman and loads of money is being tossed around?

With the “club” being what dictates a good hip-hop record, it has transformed the traditional sound, killing the essence of what it means to exercise your freedom of speech. You have the conscious rappers, rapping with undertones of a trap rapper. Using a triplet flow behind a 110 BPM beat while still trying to maintain lyrical integrity.  If it is not thumping your eardrums with overpowering bassline it is not “lit”. If it does not have a simple preschool melody it is not “lit” . If melody and complicated drums is important, you could easily get that from a 9th wonder or black thought instrumental.

With “money” and “popularity”, controlling what it means to release a rap record. It overshadows the raw talent. Putting everyone in the mindset, that this rap shit is all fun and games. “I’m here to get rich, and only for that purpose”. We have pimped our own culture to the point, outsiders barley respect us. Do not let yourself be persuaded by that check. Money is a great factor, yes, but money can be build within the communities hip-hop has came from. I know many great rap acts with an minimal fan base, and I support them to the fullest. Too the rap niggas and the trap niggas, too the artistic niggas. Do not let the over-hyped presence that surround certain acts  fool you.

We accept the less while we could have more. When as a culture we should not shun the people who promotes a message. But accept and embrace them. Why must they have to sell to you an image and promote a lifestyle that will lead you down the path of self destruction to sell records ? I think musically, structure and beat break downs are important. But why is this the defense of “trap music”. Is it boring because it does not have the topics of sex, murder and drugs. Does it lack musical depth because it does not sound like an overpowered 808 baseline. Do the image of the artist looks so unappealing to you that it makes the music “uncool” ? I accept and understand hip-hop has went through a evolution stage. But why hasn’t the topics progressed as well with it? Why does almost every beat sound like a club beat? While you scream money over bitches, I’m going to keep screaming, Question Everything! 

Think like a human being, an artist, and a entrepreneur. Do not embrace the ideology behind a rapper because it has changed from the long days of ago. 

 I am in defense of the other side of hip-hop, the true roots of what this shit stands for.  No longer shall we keep slandering rap acts that embrace true talent. 

OLZ Says Fuck Friends, Success is all I need in the end

 

When I heard this song, I was truly impressed by the soulfulness he laid on the hook. This is an artist that truly has a lot of potential. This track shows me that he is a threat to the industry. I am truly interested to see what he does as an artist. This song truly expresses OLZ  frustrations that he has with peers. “All the friends he build with turned to stoners” , he raps, this song to me, expresses that him and his friends are all succumbing to the system and in the end can not rely on one another because they are all fighting the same battle. He has changed as a person and it sounds like he has outgrown his old friends and is on to new journeys ahead. Listen to the song below, it is truly amazing.

When Love Finds You(Requested By Aaron)

When searching for love and one relationship does not work out after another. We often ask ourselves is it us or them? Me being in three relationships were I thought it was  in “love”, believing that this person is the reason for my super powers. I Put my happiness in their hands, neglecting my own self-confidence. Not realizing that this power lies in me.  Was it really fair that I did that to them ? I placed the weight of my world on their shoulders. When the world came tumbling down falling from the grasp of their hands it shattered. And I allowed it.

After being lied to, cheated on, and sold false realities. I realized that they are not doing this because they wanted to feel “love” from me. I was just filling the need and dependency that I was missing in our relationship. Then from that time on, I realized I am missing a need and dependency, the love from myself.