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Weed Was More Than Habit, It Healed

I was parched as some high intensity heat beating down on my head. I walked black concrete down long shallow roads. The roads extended out of my pupil, peering on the roadside out my window. My head veered over as I feel a blank fog covering my mind. Forgetting every important task that I could not complete today. I almost felt a sense of hopelessness overtake me.

 

Before I decide to act out on my day, I had thoughts that we’re hurt. These thoughts had me feel hopeless. Even while doing this, I still lose stuff in the process. These issues was really affecting my confidence. To the point I could not even feel human. It was hard to even explain to the people around me what was going on.

 

That is when I knew I had to take a stand. At this point I tried getting high to take away the stress. When I started smoking, it created a happy place. This happy place put me on the path to do. I kept moving, not thinking about the thoughts that we’re dulling me like an old knife. As soon as the high wore off, I fell down with the high. The high was an ode to kiss my worries behind.

 

They say I needed good problem solving skills. The problem solving skills I had we’re not sufficient. My life was not as easy as one+one, then all my problems would be solved. My self-consciousness was often over bloated to the point I could not see out myself. I had so many problems going on in my world, it held me back.

 

This is what adult hood felt like. It did not mirror that of my carefree days. This almost felt like a mental sickness swallowing my being. This was the man in the mirror going to dust. I really could not even reach out to people. I did not knew we’re to fucking start. Being over bloated my weight losing routine consist of smoking big spliffs. The spliffs we’re great to lose the density despaired in my mind.

 

As I smoke the band aid that lead me to bliss. I wrote down the reasons of why I couldn’t focus internally to come out on top. These behaviors often lead me to other ill behaviors. Which was drinking. My stresses I laid out on this paper we’re simple. The simplicity of what I wrote could not be corrected over night.

 

What I did was simply, change actions to a better me. I had to give out my whys on how becoming better could keep me from the brink of self-destruction. Letting the last of my weed burn down to the tail. I said accountability has to be one of the options for my actions. If I don’t embrace this, I will surely fall to the bottom as I once did. 

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Ya’lim Bestowed Glory To Warriors That Succeeded

Climbing up a mountain top, it was tremendous in height. The height was so tremendous, mystical beings, made out of silver light. Swirled in the sky among white clouds. The silver light was that of an illuminated marshmallow. The light was so illuminated that the clouds took shape of mystical beings.

 

Being deep into my compass, I was certain that success was close. These flashes of light distracted me from going up the mountain top. The mountain top I have been climbing for five days. In order to reach the Scarab that was held by a warrior name- Akin. Akin was that of a ruler. His calculations we’re on point, legend says, quantum theory was his go to source for building resource in his country.

 

had to climb the top of this mountain to reach the Akin’s Scarab. The Scarab was awarded to him from Sky god, Ya’lim. Ya’lim granted him this Scarab from Ancient egypt because it was crafted by the most skilled. This rare artifact came after he conquered mesopotamian societies. Akin had slain magicians that held great wars against empires he built. Raising armies from which the great seas had murdered warriors on their treacherous travels.

 

Akin was able to maintain his dynasty for over six-thousand years. He was buried after his hundredth year as ruler. He made many beautiful families and had received many fine artifacts, weapons and jewelry you can find. Me knowing his story, I had to retrieve the artifact that graced a person of this caliber.

 

This mountain has never been explored. As it was off limits, beware of your own caution. Me, I wanted to be like Akin, brave and fearless. I kept on going to the mountain, seeing the most deformed of insects cross my way as it begins to get more mossy. A goat that had Antlers of a reindeer, stared deep as I made my way to the top. The scarab was ingrained on a tree. At this moment I knew the journey I made was worth it.

2020 Bernie Sanders Puts Pressure On Big Corporate & School Systems

McDonald workers are petitioning their rights for better living. Often at times, female employees are faced with sexual misconduct. Managers are overworked by franchise owner stretching a dollar by what is given. Across the board, minimum wage is not seen as a way for supporting livelihood in America. Franklin D. Roosevelt said himself, “The test of our progress is not whether we add more to the abundance of those who have much. It is whether we provide enough for those who have little”. Being a Democrat political party, his message ears off to many others in Democrat America today.

 

Urban development Julian Castro, New York City mayor Bill De Blasio and, Washington Governor Jay Inslee. All met together with Bernie Sanders in regards to McDonald workers not receiving their fair share in America. Bernie even wrote a letter to the McDonald’s Ceo for them to raise wages for people working in their establishment.

 

Many people that are Senators in the Democratic party are rallying together. Bernie Sanders holds his words, talking in high regards, saying that people that are birthed in this country should be allowed equal opportunity to succeed. His stances we’re correcting the school systems. Highlighting Brown V. Board of Education, that separate school systems for African-american and whites were inherently unequal.

 

Bernie has many passions that want America’s working class to have a fair shot at life. America has not always been the best place for those that want a second chance at life. His reforms want to promise a better future for the youth. In a country that is dominated by funds over emotion. If Bernie’s promises catches wind, this could persuade some of the people that have given up. Not the middle-class citizens in America, but the people that are not even thought in the best light.

 

The people who wake up everyday with such weight on their shoulders. Worrying about if they are going to see a full forty-hours a week for work. Some of these parents come from harsh backgrounds raising kids in America. Which some of these kids will repeat the same process that their parents once did. The democratic reform that would take place would possibly mold opportunity for those that have seen heavy economic strife.

Economic Status Drove Someone To The Point Of Suicide

Sat alone, a boy quite in nature, not speaking. His head held down deep into his desk. Not being focused into his school work. He attended private school, his mother courageously broke her back for him to have a better education. This opportunity would be a chance for him to focus. Although yes, he has shoes that are great, the snobs could not understand why they aren’t Saint Laurent. His clothes may have came from thrift shopping but allowed him not to go cold. It still was not good enough to fit into his social setting.

 

He was often tormented by people that had clothes better than him. He comes from a background where his Auntie was addicted on heroin. His father left off to join the army back in Iraq, just for him to be killed in action. Being sixteen, he harbors in his mind of going into the streets. Not because it is the cool thing to do, only because he wants to be able to keep up with the Jones.

 

His tormentors often called him names, saying, “you do not belong in this school.“ you are a  low life scum, that came from the pits of the projects”. Others that sat around these words got a laugh out of it. The laughing carried on for at-least 60 seconds. Some teachers sat back and watched until the first punch was thrown. The boy snapped and threw a punch so hard it knocked his harasser on the floor. Only for him to get on top of his harasser and beat him to a bloody smear that splattered across the floor. A teacher had to interject, screaming his name.

 

Tommy ! Tommy !

 

She tried pulling him off but he would not let. Seeing his moms cry from a hospital bill she had. Only to afford cancer treatments for his one year old brother. Tommy anger would not let up, security had to rush in to break the situation up. The harasser had to be seen from others as he laid on the floor. Half dazed, in astonishment to what just happened in the haymakers that left him nodding off.

 

The principal had to come out of his office, this fight was bad. They end up calling the police as Tommy sat in the office. Waiting for his judgement to be heard. At this point, Tommy knew that his track record does not look good. He skipped class a couple times in order not to go to school. He got tired of being seen as an outsider. His mother did not want to let the teachers know of their personal dealings. As this would take away from the child’s education and the way he is seen.

 

Tommy had a grandmother that was the first African-American lady to finish college as a social worker. Before she passed, she knew that the family had seen much struggle and strife. With the economy getting even harder for them. Tommy even felt like more of an outside because he went to school with mainly caucasians, as he was a dark skinned.

 

Tommy got suspended, that same day, he commited suicide. Tommy being an outsider was not able to fit in.  His soul was tired on that day.

Robert Muller Trail Blazes Media With His Truth

As much goes on in the world we call politics. People are still in awe that Donald Trump became president. As most American citizens were idly waiting by for a better choice. Both political parties at that time were not a great ideal candidate for the American elections. Both we’re doing under-handed deeds that lead Hillary under investigation. Trump having alleged ties to Russia for an election he has won. When many Americans have felt that this man should have not taken home the win. While us as the people, are left blind to what is going on in politics.

News publications across media right now is trail blazing with findings from the Muller Report. Something that is so prolific it is highlighting facts going back to 2016 in Trumps dealings with Russia. As this report is filed along side with the attorney general. The report by Robert Muller is a self-documented side by side case highlighting what he has seen with the president. Robert Muller is giving America a taste of the truth from his side of the grass. This might be a problem, as this might be in the same space as Wiki Leaks. Important documentation of the dark side of America. That is going out into the public eye in which we should not know about.

Robert Muller was assigned to oversee Trumps involvement with Russia. Which leads me to believe in which what was going on before the elections. This is a very special time for America. As this past political campaign high-lights the underhanded theories that conspiracy theorist always question. Trump wanted Muller fired but could not get him fired due to other people that are backing him. I hope that this goes well for Muller as this puts a target on his back in America. This is a man being held under fire yet celebrated at the same time for wanting to share his accounts.

Levels To A System I Survived

In life there are the successful and the overwhelmed. Those people who push America to the greatest heights never foreseen to an average person. Those who separated themselves by going after an American fantasy fueled by their own desire to be completed energy in a workflow environment. Becoming a living micro-organism helping the benefits that are employed by high company wages.  Those people are really great aristocrats in a society where doing math numbers helped gave definite answers to an unsolved invention for a humans facets. They have reached the second level from a minimum wage employee doing laborious activity: feeling slaved to American society.

People often at the bottom feel a sense of powerlessness and helplessness. Not being able to become equipped to sit in a class room, having thirst of knowledge. They took a blow to the seat belt strapped, not having leeway to escape this accident. Being in a primal instinctive existence to fight for life, going through trials and tribulations not having a great enigma backing them or their beliefs. This is what separated; human thought, process and action from one another understanding. Also on the same token, this has proven to be America’s best suited warriors to take on the ills that higher leveled minds would never imagined doing. Instilling a sense of humility in their spirit.

I had to pick up my mighty sword: living to fight another day. The position I was birthed in to earn my soils birthright. I was a white lily sinking into the dirt on which blood shed by our human torment had started. Raised by the hand of King Louie and instilled by Genghis Khan to instill human systems that supported their families name. Generations to come, levels are realized by going against the grain for the top to succeed. Levels in life are only an Animals will to devour those that are on a dietary food chain.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Traveling Is Worth More Than Money

Hours after punching a clock, going through a rat race to fulfill life’s responsibilities. Sitting in a cold office space drinking hot coffee to stay alive as the time hands move number to number. We endlessly search through our smart phones for the latest happening in order to keep ourselves entertain. Maybe I am a business owner that is in a small town with a mom and pop store. Giving great services to people that are in my area, In hopes that they come back again and again. All in this grand scheme of living a full-filling happy life.

As I am making my ends meet while greeting good faces. All have different creeds and backgrounds. I question my point of reality and wonder. It has to be more to life than what I am doing right now. We open our travel pamphlets. Looking at the world vast and wide. Wishing to hit the vast sea or the worlds open sky in order to experience something new and different.

Traveling is an end goal in which a human being has to accomplish. Why ?   Because of the importance it brings to a person. Why see what is going on in the small town in a different place. There are ancient relics that are left un-explored at our journeys, waiting for us to be seen. Different parts of America are experiencing different clement changes during winter and summer seasons.

In a humans lifetime, traveling is important to a persons psyche. It opens up the realm of possibility that are experience may be missing.