When searching for love and one relationship does not work out after another. We often ask ourselves is it us or them? Me being in three relationships were I thought it was in “love”, believing that this person is the reason for my super powers. I Put my happiness in their hands, neglecting my own self-confidence. Not realizing that this power lies in me. Was it really fair that I did that to them ? I placed the weight of my world on their shoulders. When the world came tumbling down falling from the grasp of their hands it shattered. And I allowed it.
After being lied to, cheated on, and sold false realities. I realized that they are not doing this because they wanted to feel “love” from me. I was just filling the need and dependency that I was missing in our relationship. Then from that time on, I realized I am missing a need and dependency, the love from myself.